Transcendence

By Mariachiara Faraon 

  

I exchanged an extreme insecurity for an extreme need for a space for self-expression. The inability to hear my own thoughts turned into a need to say them all out loud.

I moved away from my comfort zone and out into the unknown.

I escaped from a state of strong mental illness to one of strong mental balance, and back, and forth, sometimes in one day, and I’m not sure I won’t transition back — or forward.

I slipped out from inside my self-centred self into the open universe, and then I brought the universe inside of me.

I fled from relationships that held me down to loving myself unconditionally.

I stopped trying to control everything and started accepting life’s continuous change, because no matter how hard I try, I can never hold it still.

I evolved from rejecting all of my emotions to understanding that it’s ok not to be ok. The soul, just like life, continuously moves.

I healed from wounds which haunted my sleep, and I kept scars which shaped my core and adorned my skin.

I learnt to trust my intuition instead of letting rational over-thinking drag me onto paths which are not the ones I want to walk.

I walked on thin ice, on clouds, on quicksands. I ran.

I flew.

     

 

 

About the Author

 

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Mariachiara Faraon is an Italian expat living in Copenhagen, a master student of Communication Studies and Cultural Encounters at RUC and a mental illness warrior and advocate. Keep up with her writings on Instagram at @marywritesworlds.